First

Well, this is my first blog post EVER. I don't really know what to say so I'm just going to say what is on my mind. I know a lot of people probably won't read this, or won't care, but I would feel much better if these issues were out in the open. Basically, I have had a crazy week. It's amazing how you can go through the motions of life every day, not even thinking to stop and take a minute to tell people you love that you care about them.

Yesterday, I found out that one of my friends from school commit suicide in a very horrible way. He had a really bad family life, and he was relatively new to our school. He was into drugs, but got clean. He was smiling and having a good time every time you saw him. Even though he always looked happy, at times you would catch a glimpse of him, and know something just wasn't right...

We have a club at my school, called the Heart Group, that I'm a part of. We talk about bullying, and how to break down barriers of cliques at our school. We have the motto 'It takes just one", that's how my blog got its name. Anyways, this boy, Jason, would show up every once in a while to Heart Group, because one of his good friends told him he should come. I don't know what all he heard, but we usually talked about how one person can truly make a difference in someones life, and how we should talk about our feelings, and accept one another.

I wish like crazy that Jason would have listened. It was just the start of summer, something went wrong in his life, and just a warning, this gets a little graphic so if you're not into that, I wouldn't continue to read... But after something went wrong, he chose to take his own life, in the worst way possible. He decided to go out into a wooded area, and when he saw the train barreling down the tracks, he laid down on them, taking his own life.

This was one of the biggest eye openers of my life. I'm the type of person who thinks I can save everybody, or at least try. I keep thinking to myself, 'what if I would have talked to him more, and told him that I would always be here for him, no matter what? What if i would have just opened up and gave my hand out to him?' Maybe things would have been different if one person would have asked what was wrong. Granted, maybe it came across as nothing was wrong. All I know is that Jason is the last person I would have expected to take his own life. This world is started to disrespect and degrade eachother way, way too much. Something needs to happen to let people know that it's NOT right and that it NEEDS to stop. More lives would be saved if people didn't worry about looking like a 'loser' because they were talking to someone 'weird'.

Changes need to happen, and they need to happen fast. Jason was only 16, he had a whole life ahead of him. Let him be our reason to keep fighting, and to try and make this world a better place. If anyone reads this, and has any suggestions at all, please, don't hesitate to post something or your ideas, they DO make a difference. Be the change you wish to see in the world.